Lord I have fought you since I came to this earth Like a restless beast I’ve desired to go my own way Lured by the world and the desires of the flesh Driven by the whims of the enemy I fought But now I know my freedom is in your chains
I pray Lord that you’d hold me tightly on your grip I no longer trust my freedom and clamour for it Before I thought I knew what I wanted I thought independence would be my freedom But I’m never safe and free like when I’m with you Put your chain on me and never let go
How strange that even now I try to escape That after your liberation I desire to be enslaved again I truly don’t know what is good for me Left on my own I would totally ruin myself Lord though I fight you still I would desire your rule
Give me the liberty of obedience to your word Teach my heart the joy of submission to your will Cause my heart to rejoice in your lordship Let your will be done become the song of my heart Not in words and songs only but in all I do
Put your chain on me and make me your slave For though many desire liberty I have found mine in you True liberty from self, this world, the flesh and the devil I know I can only truly serve one master So let that be you my Lord and Saviour Jesus Put your chain around me and seal me as yours forever
We should watch the things that put us to tears The anticipation that gives us sleepless nights The dreams that catch us in broad daylight They are our greatest worries or treasures These indeed are our truest convictions
The headlines that captivate us the most The things we admire and get jealous over That which makes our knees to weaken They say a lot about what we value in life And our faith must start by captivating such
These are the songs we sing to our hearts The teachings that our minds attend Our hands cling to such than anything else But such treasures or idols must first bow Bow to the one who must own our hearts
Whatever holds our hearts owns our convictions In there belongs true love, beauty and treasure But also the idols of money, sex and power The things we want and what we fear most If Jesus be Lord of all he must conquer here
Lord help me to bow down my joys and fears To let you be my greatest love and treasure Help me to cast down my precious idols Own my fears and liberate me to serve you Be the Lord of my heart and with it everything
So often when we talk about prayer we think material things and don’t get me wrong there’s a place for that. We pray about jobs, financial needs and health matters. It’s a beautiful declaration of our dependence to our heavenly Father. We should pray for material things.
But it’s striking that we would see our need and helplessness in this and not in our need for discipleship. How often do we turn in prayer to ask God’s help to be like his son? When we read his commands do we ask him to help us obey them? As we fight sin do we ask him for help? As we pursue love for neighbor and godliness in our lives do we ask Jesus to create that in us?
Apart from me you can do nothing
Jesus speaking in John 15:5 that passage we love to quote says something striking in light of our own discipleship.
John 15:5-6 NIV 5 “I am the vine; you are the branches. If a man remains in me and I in him, he will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing. 6 If anyone does not remain in me, he is like a branch that is thrown away and withers; such branches are picked up, thrown into the fire and burned.
That last line of verse 5 is very important because it means whatever Jesus is asking his disciples here before his imminent death at the cross is something they actually can’t do. Yes you heard me right, on their own, whatever he says here they can’t do it.
Let’s see, in the previous chapters he’s asked them to follow his example; to wash each others feet in chapter 13. To love and serve others. By effect this means being willing to die to self to serve others. In chapter 14, they are not to fear but to believe in him who will walk with them and prepare for them a home in heaven. Every fear calls for a faith response. You could say fearing itself is an act of unbelief.
Here in chapter 15 he’s asking for fruit in their lives. He’s saying the branch that doesn’t bear fruit will be cut down and burned. Do you know what he’s saying strictly speaking? If you don’t bear fruit be ready for hell fire. Later he will tell them to be ready to be hated by the world like they hated and persecuted Jesus. Friends I hope I don’t need to convince you further that if you try this by your own might you’ll have a stressful time. It cannot be done.
That sentence, apart from me you can do nothing becomes very important. It means if we are to become true disciples who follow Jesus and bear fruit we need his help. If there’s any hope to obey and serve King Jesus we need his helping hand. So many times he echoes that in this section. That we can ask the Father for help and he’ll help us. The problem is we don’t ask.
But that’s the point friends, try approaching discipleship with your might and grit and see how far you go. It can’t be done. You can’t even do it yourself however committed you are leave alone discipling others.
Have you asked for his help?
So I ask again when is the last time you prayed for your own discipleship? Yes you can ask the Lord for all the material things you need. But have you lately asked the Lord for his help to love others? When was the last time you told Jesus, this sexual sin is becoming a serious thing, help me Jesus. Have you told Jesus you’d love to serve him but you find it hard to love and serve other people? Do you see how you’ve been setting yourself up for failure?
What do you think is missing in your own discipleship? What do you admire and perhaps even feel jealous about others? I know I would love to be more prayerful. But do you know what I realised recently? I had not before asked the Lord to do that for me. To come and say, Lord help me to pray more to you.
Perhaps you’d love to be more committed to his Word. To be like those people who read the Bible cover to cover every year. But have you asked Jesus to help you in this. Maybe you’d love to serve the church more, give more to mission work. A question for you, have you asked for the Father’s help?
Until we understand those words, that apart from him we can do nothing we’ll always try do something in vain. Alternatively, we’ll give up and conclude I’m just not a prayerful man. We might even theologise it that it’s for the Charismatics.
We’ll end up saying I’m not disciplined enough to read the Bible consistently. We can even argue and show why it’s actually not that effective. But before we get there we need to remember discipleship wasn’t meant for the disciplined and strong willed. It’s actually for those weak in spirit. It’s for those who tell the Father, I can’t do it Lord. Help me dear Father!
Respond to his commands with a prayer
Friends before you drown yourself with sorrow or harden your heart to the Saviour’s call ask for his help. Add to your prayers this prayer: Lord make me what you want me to be. Lord, bear in me the fruit you desire. Conform this selfish heart to love and serve others. Make your will what I crave for. Teach this heart to delight in your commands. Help me Lord to be like your son. Help me to obey him. Help me to say his will not mine be done. Learn to pray back what the word commands you before you get on with it.
I think it’ll be a good practice to pray every time we read his word or are convicted about a specific area of discipleship. That’s a good practice in all things but we need to make it true for our personal discipleship. To read Jesus commands and tell him honestly, fulfill that in me or it’s not going to happen.
He says love your neighbor. Tell him how selfish you are and ask for his help. He says we should commit to his mission, remind him how self centered we are and how we need his help. If discipleship will work, if change will ever happen it’ll take Jesus to accomplish it in us. Apart from him we can do nothing.
When I walked in darkness it was my imagination that led me I saw things dimly but got used to this world of darkness I heard others whisper around me and knew I wasn’t alone We were in this together and somehow that brought comfort
So we walked trying to figure out the way But the more we stayed shut in the more we got used to this Soon we knew how to live without light We had become like bats and were okay with that
You’d have been struck hearing us plan the future We had forgotten our greatest need for light And we were content figuring life on our own I dare say we now hated the light and rejoiced in darkness
When the flashlight lit the room our eyes couldn’t bear it We were used to the darkness, how were we to handle such light? But more importantly how were we to live in this new world? Before we knew what we wanted but now everything had changed
If he didn’t hold my hand I doubt I would have come out Many are those who chose to shut their eyes ignoring the light So often I find myself going back to that habit Choosing the darkness instead of his marvelous light
Now I am a child of the light but I live in a world of darkness Lord if you didn’t hold my hand I would quickly shut my eyes Teach my heart to love the light of the Gospel To walk this new life with the torch of your Word
Hold my hand Lord for my heart is prone to wander and hide The old man of darkness keeps knocking at my door I would have him totally destroyed yet he seems to resurrect daily Grant me the grace and strength to also kill him daily
I long for that day when the darkness will be no more When my eyes will close and never see that old man again I crave for the world above where your light rules the day Lord, keep my gaze on that day when I see your light forever