
There’s nothing more beautiful than truly knowing yourself
Knowing the person who rents the house within
The world can see his abilities and potential
But knowing his weakness and flaws is powerful
Yes you may hide them and pretend but you need to know
I say you’re never more alive, never free to live
Never breathing than when you know the man inside
When I lived in the pretense of my goodness
In the slavery of my self-righteousness
And the idolatry of my potential and ability
I thought highly of myself but was always guilty of something
I enjoyed when my ego was caressed
But was in tears whenever I went unrecognized
I thought I was free but that was another lie I told myself
I thought I was good and mostly better than most
I thought people were privileged to know me and be around me
What a once in a generation kind of man I thought myself
Then in my bed at night I tossed when I did something bad
I had lied to myself and thought of me righteous and beyond failure
Oh, the agony of keeping up with my own set expectations!
I was a slave handcuffed by my own hands in my own dungeon
But every morning I woke up and went back to my lies
I thought today I’ll do better than yesterday
I’m able to do far much more than people think
My slave heart told me I’ve such power within me
And so I went on trying to prove my goodness
I walked around my own dungeon and thought myself free
Someone complimented me and I thought yes that’s me
I was wounded by those who saw my flaws
I tried to argue out why that wasn’t actually me
I worked hard to show them to be wrong about me
The slave within me didn’t want to accept the obvious
It was a hopeless situation that none could save me from
I was lying to others about me and to myself
But one day the truth hit me like a quick bullet
I was introduced for the first time to the true man inside
I saw him as he was with his abilities yes
But for the first time, I saw his deep wretchedness
The man I tried to defend was rotten and dying
He needed someone to heal his wounds
He needed a Saviour not a lawyer to defend him
I’ve honestly never been more liberated
My eureka moment happened when the Gospel lit inside
When I truly understood its claim that I’m a sinner
I couldn’t truly comprehend salvation before
Because I didn’t truly think myself to be deeply sinful
Yes I knew I wasn’t perfect but always thought myself better
The Gospel told me who I really was
And I was liberated for the first time from my own shackles
These days I don’t think too highly about this man
If people happen to notice my weakness I’m not surprised
Not that I no longer care about my reputation but I know this guy
I have nothing of my own apart from that which I was given
Everything I am and own and claim as mine isn’t mine
It’s the Lord’s who gave me when he saved me from my shackles
When he made this son his own son by the blood of his Son.
Indeed this little Life of ours should shine in knowing God better , may he continue to sanctify this Little life so that it can shine in his words. Thanks for this knowing man inside it’s so great
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Glad you found it helpful
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This is indeed amazing. Knowing thyself has always been a thing to dread.
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thanks Alex
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